I'm typing one-handed cause I have a puppy on my chest...

Blind Edge

What's in a name really? I don't know, but we finally picked one last night, and it was just very cool. Not just the name, but the whole process. It was full of all the emotion, all the fears, all the strongness of us, but when it all was said and done, we picked one! Yes, just one. Everyone had a say, and everyone listened, although not always without comment :-), and it was good. I'm digging it, and I am digging all of you! Yeah...

Behold, The Horse!

This, my friends, is why I love Dressage!

http://www.youtube.com:80/watch?v=zKQgTiqhPbw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MPJGEzI3aIc&mode=related&search=

Enjoy!

I found 5 of these stone tablets and hung them on our fence recently just because I liked what they said. I was out doing my daily leaf count this morning on all of the trees in my yard and took this picture. This is the embodiment of what we are doing these days. And if you just kind of look at the surface of this, you think, " Yeah, we're doing that, and isn't it cool?" But you know what, it's also really hard. It's hard blending all of the personalities in the people we hang with. It's hard to always care when someone needs caring. It's hard to listen to someone sharing their problems when you just want to say, "Get a grip already!" To know that next time it might be you with the problem and the last thing you'll want to hear is "Get a grip!"

Why can't I be more compassionate?
Why do I have to be so practical?
What is wrong with me anyway, that I just don't seem to feel as deeply as everyone else?
Why do I have to be so honest right now?

Please everyone, call me on this stuff. Help me to understand your problems, so that I don't immediately want you to just get a grip. Don't stop talking to me and telling me what's going on in your lives, because now you know my secret thoughts when you do so. Tell me WHY you can't get a grip. Help me to become less pragmatic and more compassionate. Help me to know when my practical side is overpowering my feeling side. I know that too much EITHER way is not healthy. There has to be a balance. And please, please do not think that I am directing this at any of you. It is totally me, and what's wrong inside MY head. If you are reading this right now, know that I LOVE YOU! I love you with all of the good and the troubling.

And finally know this: The second part of this tablet has been no trouble for any of us. We laugh and dream together WELL, and easily.