I said good-bye to a piece of my heart yesterday.
How do you process that?
I have remained fairly unemotional to this point.
Am I stuffing things?
Will I cry more tomorrow?
Will I ever cry like everyone else?
Is it just because I've done this so much in my life, that I just deal with it?
I KNOW how much I love them.
Life literally will not be the same without them here. The past five and a half years are filled with the precious memories of life with the McDaniels. How blessed am I to have worked with Brian, and how gracious was God to have removed me before I had to experience his missing presence. How blessed am I to have had the time to spend with Candace this past week. Just many little unexpected times together, both alone and with others. Girlfriend time! How blessed were our children to have spent the entire weekend together. Eating, sleeping, breathing next to one another. God is so good. And yes, as I feel the tears begin, I am dealing with it. The tears I shed are tears of pain, but of new growth and healing as well. As Jessi so aptly put it, "It's time for them to bring good times to others." They will continue to be a part of the rest of my life. They have had eternal impact on me and mine,
and that makes God GLAD!
7 comments:
I should have known better than to venture to the blog world, but let's face it, I'm a blogaholic, I need to go to bloggers anoynomous. Anyhow, I'm trying to work and it just doesn't seem important anymore. Well, it never did, but now it's just hard to concentrate and care about the minutia. I guess I'm spewing forth 6 months of supressed tears! Thank you Susie for sharing your heart, and being such a wonderful friend to the McDaniels and me.
Your words are perfect Susie!
Vicki
If you want to laugh and cry at the same time, check out Jessi's blog...:>)
suzie,
you always share your true hEaRt... thanks for doing that.
Richcrockett
ooops,
sorry i put a "z" in your name; felt a rip in the Force, knew in my heart it was wrong... won't happen again.
Susie!
I love you, I am sooo glad that we were somewhat joined at the hip this last week. Thank you for your love and your friendship. I LOVE that I will always be a part of your first tattoo memory!! Can I have the second too?...when you come to the islands that is to receive your traditional piece...
Thank you for making us feel so special by your love.
I miss you susie, I read your comment on Jacqui's blog and it was just so "Susie" I miss you! :)
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